I Don’t Know, And That’s Ok

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Psalms 133

1 LORD, my heart is not haughty, nor mine eyes lofty: neither do I exercise myself in great matters, or in things too high for me.

2 Surely I have behaved and quieted myself, as a child that is weaned of his mother: my soul [is] even as a weaned child.

3 Let Israel hope in the LORD from henceforth and for ever.

One of my favorite Psalms is nestled away in a section known as The Song Of Degrees. I say it this way because, it isn’t talked about very much. It sits quietly waiting for someone to read it, and to realize how valuable it is. This three verse Psalm contains a message that has kept me through the years of my life.

We live in a world of wonder, in regards to technology and knowledge. Information that once filled the volumes of libraries, places restricted to the well breed and financially stable, now flood the internet. Growing up, one of my cherished possessions, was a set of encyclopedias that my parents bought me. Today, more information than could fill those books, is just a click away.

When I was younger, I used to think that one of the worst sentences that I could speak was “I don’t know.” It took me a while to learn that, not only was there things that I didn’t know, some other information I would never know. Today, one of the most liberating phrases in my vocabulary is, “I don’t know.”

What made the difference? People who were smarter than I was taught me that not knowing was ok. They were, and are amazing teachers that God placed into my life to explain that I didn’t have to know everything. They gave me the courage to learn.

I am a fan of knowledge. When someone talks about a subject like history, or makes a discovery, I’m a cheerleader. I’m a fan of individuals that most people never heard of, men like Baron Von Stockmar, Henri Guisan, and James Sherman. So it may seem an oxymoron to say, that not knowing helped increase my knowledge, but it’s so true.

When you’re afraid of not knowing, you’re too busy being scared to learn something. If you accept the fact, that there is so much more than you understand, it shuts fear down. You’re not too stubborn to learn, you’re not incapable of learning, you were just afraid of not already knowing.

The Psalmist understood this very well, oh David was smart. He was the man who had a heart after God’s heart. This was the one who composed countless Psalms, received the blueprints for Solomon to build the Temple, and fought countless battles. Oh, he was smart. Smart enough to know that some things, he would never understand.

So after countless Revelations, Prophecies, and Victories, God uses him to pen this Psalm. The first verse is my favorite. It’s the one that I held on to when nothing made sense, it’s the one that I still hold to when nothing makes sense.

People look at Christians and many pity us. They consider us old fashioned, and out of date with modern society. As a result, we have attempted to prove what we know to be true. I can tell you, without doubt, that we have more scientific proof for a Creator than for mutating amoebas. I can set down with a number of highly intelligent people and explain to them why I serve a loving and caring God.

I’m not talking about ignorance, God made us to know everything we can. This is why He said to “Study the Scriptures to show thyself approved, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed.” It’s also why, in the book of Job as well as others, He points us to the stars to understand science and nature. What I’m talking about is something more.

David never said he didn’t exercise himself in matters that he could reach. A child will play with anything it can pick up. However, even a two year old knows that it can’t reach something on the roof of a building. That is what I’m talking about with this article. When I was younger, I tried to reach the ceiling with a step stool. Today, I watch as God climbs down the ladder to meet my need.

1 LORD, my heart is not haughty, nor mine eyes lofty: neither do I exercise myself in great matters, or in things too high for me.

To paraphrase, the Psalmist is saying, “Lord, I know my limitations. I’m not arrogant enough to act like I know more than I do. I don’t try and walk in areas that are above me. I don’t try and stand on my tip toes to reach what has been placed out of path for safety.” In the past, I would have tried to grasp what I couldn’t handle, and hurt myself in the process.

Today, if I don’t understand, I pray for the understanding. If it comes, I walk in it, God has placed it on my level. If the understanding isn’t revealed, I leave it to my Father. I trust that He is smart enough to take care of it. I may not understand it, but I do understand Him. I know that He cares for me. I know that He loves me. I know that He will protect me. In the end, when it comes right down to it, that is really all that we absolutely have to know!